The MYSTERY behind why my EGO must die.


My ego is a clever little son of a bitch. It’s not like one of those brash cocky little bastards that runs a long the walls of a soul, shouting down at the minions below, demanding the servitude and worship of it’s owner.

No, my ego is more subtle, more cunning, more devious and understated, but just as insidious and twice as dangerous.

My ego is a game player, he loves nothing more than to clothe himself in false humility,  and to proudly show the world how humble he is.

I have finally had enough of his lies, which is why my ego must die.

My ego wants to rape my creativity; he wants to steal from it everything that is good, sacred and pure.

Creativity that does not live solely for the charity of others, is a deformed, twisted obsession that ambitiously gathers and claws as much as it can for it’s own selfish gain.

 

 

2012 Copyright Seven Sentences – Why My Ego Must Die
  • Phil Rood

    Ego is a necessary evil.  I’m working on things that I put up on the internet, which, for better or worse, is the biggest stage in the world.  Potentially, billions of people could see and comment on my work, and it’s not always gonna be good stuff.  If I didn’t have ANY ego, I’d never put anything up there to be judged.  Ego is what gives me my confidence in my work, it gives me the ability to say “I like this piece, it’s good and I want to know what other people think of it too.”  This ability does not come easy to me and I do struggle with it often.  I need my ego to push my work onto the internet.

    Conversely, I do have humility, which I see as a separate entity.  It’s kind of the Yin to my ego’s Yang.  I illustrated a book last year, and whenever someone would buy one from me, they’d ask me to sign it.  As I did it, there was a voice in my head saying: “Who the hell do you think you are to be signing autographs.  You hack wannabe…”  But sign them I did.  I believed in the work and believed in what I was doing without getting a runaway ego about it because my humility kept it in check.

    I think you need ego, but you need humility as well.  The two balance each other.